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Jan. 1st, 2005 @ 10:44 am (no subject)
new live journal name..... mis_fit_jenn


so add me fuckers

jenn
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Jan. 1st, 2005 @ 07:40 am (no subject)
the scars are still there refusing to fade away
reminding me of my weakness, in 2 ways
to weak to live, yet to weak to die
suicide is not the only option,
it is not as easy as you think.
so hard to talk to people
to tell them it even hurts to blink
to close your eyes and wishing
that when they open you will see a diffent senery
when all your feelings collide you feel like a falure

jj wont like this..but he probly wont read it so oh well
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Jan. 1st, 2005 @ 05:10 am (no subject)
i have no fucking friends...i give up
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Dec. 28th, 2004 @ 12:13 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: as i lay dying
im so sick of 2 faced fucks.

jenn
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Dec. 26th, 2004 @ 08:43 pm pain kills the less expierianced
"The Fragile"

she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters when everything is meaningless

fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving
I can't watch her slip away

I won't let you fall apart

she reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
hoping someone can see
if I could fix myseld I'd - but it's too late for me

I wont let you fall apart

we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
I'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking...

it's something I have to do
I was there, too
before everyhting else
I was like you
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Dec. 24th, 2004 @ 11:59 pm (no subject)
strawberry gashes
You are "Strawberry Gashes." Most likely,
you're depressed, or angry at the world.
Although you have a few friends, you're often
suicidal at times, and want nothing but for
your world to be okay. It'll be better some
day. :D


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Dec. 22nd, 2004 @ 02:51 am i got inspired
i wish my life was a fairytale
but im not the beautiful cinderella underneath that mask
and those are not glass slippers on my feet
the perfect girl turns bak to the poor bitch after midnight
the truth is impossible when you hide behind masks and lies
will you still be my prince and love me in the moring
i know i am not as special as you believe me to be
you see me through rose colored glasses
i am the girl who stis by the fireplace and wishes for perfect
stair in the mirror and prey to be cinderella
the truth is im no where near her
i just wish my life was a fairytale
but i am not the beautiful cinderella underneath that mask
and those glass slippers shaddered when i stepped back into reality
the perfect girl faces reality after midnight
it is easy to pretend who you are when no one can see your face behind a mask
will you still love me when the mask is off
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Dec. 22nd, 2004 @ 12:41 am it sucks not to feel pretty
I'm not afraid of standing still
I'm just afraid of being bored
I'm not afraid of speaking my mind
I'm just afraid of being ignored

I'm not afraid of feeling
and I'm not afraid of trying
I'm just afraid of losing
And I am afraid of dying


Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you yes I do
Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you yes I...


I'm not afraid of being sick
I'm more afraid of being well
I'm not afraid
Put the gun in my hand
I'm just afraid it will hurt like (hurt like) hell

I'm not afraid of screaming
and I'm not afraid of crying
I'm just afraid of forgetting
And I am afraid of dying


Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you yes I do
Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you yes I...


Fear of
Fear of
Fear of
Fear of


I'm not afraid of looking ugly
I couldn't care what they say
I'm not afraid of happy endings
I'm just afraid my life won't work that way

I'm not afraid of forgiveness
I absolve you everything
I'm not afraid of lying...
But I am afraid of dying


Without you yes I do and I hope that you do too
Without you yes I do
Without you all I do is sit and think about you
Without you yes I...

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Dec. 20th, 2004 @ 02:11 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: distresseddistressed
i am devistated...


jennifer
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Dec. 15th, 2004 @ 04:52 pm (no subject)
01) What time are you starting this?: 2:54 pm
002) Name?: jennifer
003) Date of birth?: 12.16.87
004) Sex?: Female.
005) Height?: 5'6
006) Eye color?: dark brown
007) Weight?: to much for me to want to tell anyone
008) Location?: jackson
009) Where were you born?: ohio
010) Have you ever failed a grade?: No.
011) If you have, what grade did you fail? -
012) Do you have crush on someone?: do you really wunna know?
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: broke up
014) If so, what is their name: was david
015) How long have you been together?: it was a bit over 8 months
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: Yes. maybe i already have.
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: no.
020) Do you smoke?: uh..duh
021) Do you drink?: wheni feel like it..it use to be all the time.
022) Are you ghetto?: no
023) Are you a player?: No
024) What are your favorite colors?: blue blak red and pink
025) What is your favorite animal?: zebra
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: Yeah
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: no
028) Who are your best friends? not to sure at the moment.
029) Have you ever beat someone up? well, i gave the girl at the atreyu show a purple face does that count?
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: david
031) Have you ever been slapped?: by david
032) Do you get online a lot?: define alot
033) Are you shy or outgoing?: both
034) Do you shower?: Yes
035) Do you hate school?: fuck yea
036) Do you have a social life?: sometimes
037) How easily do you trust people? hahahha.....
038) Have you ever lied to your best friends?: i dont know. probably
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: yeah
040) Would you ever sky dive?: no
041) Do you like to dance?: Yeah, when im alone and no one is watching
068) Have you ever been out of state?: yeah
069) Do you like to travel?: its boring on the way there..
070) Have you ever been expelled from school?: No.
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: no.
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: i want out of jackson...im proudly sain git is NOT my home town
072) Are you spoiled?: kinda
073) Are you a brat?: fuck no
074) Have you ever been dumped?:yea want me to name them too?
075) Have you ever gotten high?: yea
076) What's your favorite drink?: what kind of drink?
077) Do you like Snapple?: sure why not
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: i hate water
079) What toothpaste do you use?: how many ppl pay attention to there fucking tooth paste?
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: yea
081) Do you have a curfew?: yea like 1, or 12 when im grounded
082) Who do you look up to?: no one. everyone is scum
083) Are you a role model?: id like to think i am...but im not
085) What name brand do you wear the most?: hahahahhaha...um...
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: i dont
087) What do you have pierced?: Ear
088) What do you want pierced?: lip, tounge, eye brow, nose, cheek, the little thingy on your nose that i dont remebr the name of
089) Do you like taking pictures?: of course.
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: only when i feel pretty
091) Do you have a tan?: i am the palest person i and my friends know
092) Do you get annoyed easily?: Yes.
093) Have you ever started a rumor?: no
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: no..im poor. fuck you
095) Do you have your own pool?:do the plastic ones count for baby's?
096) Do you have any siblings?: Yes.
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: well...boxers..but im a girl,so...
098) Have you ever been played?: i dunna..hey any exboyfriends..have i?
099) Have you ever played anyone?: fuck no
100) Do you get along with your parents?: i get along with my mom most of the time. i dont get along with my dad..
102) How do you vent your anger?: i dont want to tell you
103) Have you ever run away?:no i have no wheere to go
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: never had a job
105) Do you even have a job?: lol. no
106) Do you daydream a lot?: no..i think of songs in my head
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: no im a loser. there are few.. like..7 in the last 4 years
108) Do you run your mouth?: no
109) What do you want a tattoo of?: jack....and i want my sleeves dont and on my wrist i want stiches.
110) What do you have a tattoo of?: nothing
111) What are your favorite flowers?: orchids
112) What does your ex bf/gf look like?: aww he is so cute, my hight, skinny, dark hair and eyes, kinda tan.
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: dont have one
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: hhmm does melissa count?
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: haha i do it everyday. no wonder i have no friends
116) Are you rude? only when i hate them, so yea! just ask nicci davids friend
117) What was the last compliment you received?: .. i dont remember
118) Do you like getting dirty?:...once again i need to know the definition
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: Innie.
120) Are you flexible?: im fat what do you think?
121) What is your heritage?: a bunch of stuff, irish, russian, germain and indian
122) What is your lucky number?: 13
123) What does your hair look like right now?: short, dark brown, way faided blue, and black tips that have grown out since i dyed it black
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: tried it once.. no
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: dont wunna say.
126) Describe your looks?: um..ugly
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: blue
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: depends
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: Yes.
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: i dodnt remebr , i was drunk!
131) When was the last time you went on a date?: damn it has been a while
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: no..im fat...if i had an eating disorder dont you thinkt hat would have changed?
136) Do you have one now?:no
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: one if im by the phone
138) Have you ever been skinny dipping?: no
139) If yes, when was the last time?: -
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?: i look like my sister. i dont know my father.
141) Do you cry a lot?: die
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: no but i use toall the time maybe i should try it again.
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: my middle toe..they are pointless
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: "yea im listning"
145) Are you the romantic type?: nope
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?: yea
147) What do you like most about your body?: my boobs
148) What do you like least about your body?: everything else
150) When was the last time you threw up?: last time....when i was at school.
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: brunette
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: black, white paint on them
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: fuck no
154) What about cleavage?: no and if i do. they ae coverd with a jacket
155) Is your best friend a virgin?: yes
158) What color are your underwear right now?: blue
159) What theme does your room have?: no but soon jack
160) What size shoe do you wear?: 8
161) What jewelry are you wearing now?: a bracelet
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: misfitzombie138
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: no
164) How are you feeling right now?:fet up
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: jjs
166) Have you ever given a lapdance?: by lillie
167) What do you sleep in?: shirts and underwear
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: i dunna
171) Would you marry for money?: No.
172) What do you drive?: nothing
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: mom
177) When was the last time you cried in school?: last week but no one noticed
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?:fuck yea..fat girl issues mother fuckers
180) What time are you finishing this?: 3:16
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