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Dec. 15th, 2004 @ 04:32 pm (no subject)
Would you be my friend?

Would you call me?

Would you let me call you?

Would you take me out to a movie?

Would you let me take you out to a movie?

Would you have sex or make love to me?

Would you talk to me if I called at like 4 a.m. in the morning saying i needed someone to talk to?

Would you by me a beer?

Would you let me buy you a beer?

Would you blaze one for me?

Would you let me have some of your mac and cheese?

Would you eat some of mine?

Would you give (not borrow or loan) me some cash?

Would you take advantage of me if i was drunk?

Are you gonna post this on your profile for me to answer?
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Dec. 15th, 2004 @ 02:39 am (no subject)
well one agin it deleted every thing. fucking shit. well anyway. my finals were today. it was pointless to take spanish, i have no hope for passing i have a fucking 40 something or lower. so i give up even tho i know i did good on my final. um my b-day is tomarrow. pointless to celebrate something no one cares for. the day i was brought into this word. i mean..what the fuck have i dont that is good. nothing,i fuck things up. i hope i die on my b-day. not this one bu tone when im like49. i dont wunna be 50. anyway.....my party is gunna suck. no one cares no one will show up so ill be at home eating food till i die. but im gunna have a kik ass cake. it will be black with the misfits skull on it. yea the damn thing is everywhere but i dont give a fuck

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Dec. 14th, 2004 @ 07:35 am (no subject)
im so sick of other peoples problems...why wopuld they fucking come to me.
hell i cant handle my own problems

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Dec. 13th, 2004 @ 07:44 am (no subject)
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck ! i hate school. i have finals this week. my spanish teacher gave us 19 page study guide that is 50% of our exame grade...damn shit. i dunna my b-day is thursday and my party is saterday..i have feelingno one will show up......but hell if ya want to(dont thin anyone will) but if ya do ill give directions, 7707756720 anyway..my mom made an appointment for me to go to a councler...for depression. she says im bipolar....ive been having extreem changes in mood, from hypoer and freeked out to..totaly sad and braking days like 3 times in one night, i dont want medicine..i dont want to be a zombie, but i dont want to be depressed either. its weird.i dunna everything just really sucks now. no friends, no family, no nothing. who do i have to talk to but the commentless livejournal? or the journal hidden in my room? i cant talk out loud...i become def when it comes to talking to ppl about emotions like this...its just hard and its not like i have anyone anyway..i dunna. i feel so fucking emo i fucking hate it..wish it was like it was last year..nothing but hate. it was good

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Dec. 11th, 2004 @ 10:35 pm wow..im fucked up
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Schizoid:Very High
Schizotypal:Very High
Borderline:Very High

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Dec. 6th, 2004 @ 09:30 pm (no subject)
im numb right now

i dont know how to get the feelings back

the only thing i know

is im fucked up
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Dec. 5th, 2004 @ 09:01 pm (no subject)
first best friend/s = erica
first job = never
first screen name = i dunna something about angel
first self purchased cd = korn
first funeral: never
first piercing/tattoo = ears
first enemy = to many
first big trip = what kind of trip?

last long car ride = alabama
last good cry = the other night
last library book checked out = history of rock for a project
last beverage drank =ovalteen
last food consumed = hot pocket
last phone call = a few hours ago..i called jj
last time showered = i dunna
last shoes worn = dvs..i hate converse
last song played = evergreen terrace
last annoyance =school
last time you had sex = that is none of ur bisness

describe your
wallet = none
underwear = they say rock on the butt and have 3 pink guitars on the front
tattoos = None.. yet..
room = small. cluttered. .. lots of stuff

Boyfriend: sweet
parents = understanding

this or that
[boxers or briefs] = Boxers.
[plaid or striped] = Plaid.
[salt or pepper] = Salt.
[okay, ok, or o.k.] = k
[bright colors or dark colors] = DARK!
[tic-tacs or certs] = Tic-tacs.
[sunshine or rain] = rain
[rain or snow] = rain
[sun or moon] = Moon.
[silver or gold] = Silver.
[silk, cotton, or flannel sheets] = cotton?
[preps or freaks] = hardcore
[popcorn-with or w/out butter] = with sugar...any other way i vomit
[ketchup, mayo, mustard, or relish]= mayo
[shampoo + conditioner in one or separate] = Separate.

if you were ____ what would it be?
an animal = vampire bat
a fruit = kiwi
a vegetable = carrot
a color = blue
a bug = a dung betle

short answer
are you smart? =no
do you like onions? no
what instruments can you play? = umm..i can screem
what words do you overuse? = fuck, whore, bitch ass, fuck nut
do you sleep with socks on? = no
are you ticklish? = dunna
are you shy? = yes
do you talk to yourself? = all the time.
do you have a basement or an attic? = niether
did you go to preschool? = yes.
are you a morning person? = fuck no

you touched?: my foot
you talked to?: jj
you hugged?: my mommie
you instant messaged?: jj
you kissed?: david!
you yelled at?: my sister
you thought about?: david
who text messaged you?: jj
who broke your heart?: dont you worry about that...
who told you they loved you?: my mommie

# of drugs taken illegally: um..
# of people i could trust with my life: so few so few so few
# of pets you have, kind, name: 3 german shepard..king, angel, barron, a ferette, nicci, and a ginny pig ruby
# of scars on my body: Too many
# of things in my past that i regret: dont wunn say
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Dec. 5th, 2004 @ 08:20 pm (no subject)
Your depressed aren't you? You are very sad, and
lonely. Not much makes you happy, and when you
are happy, it passes quickly. You are surviving
right? That's all you can worry about right now
eh? You're alive, your finding some happiness
in this shitty thing called life, and you're
breathing. That's enough for now. Things will
get better. You just have to make it through
this hard time. It's tough, but remember,
someone out there loves you. All this will make
you stronger, and you'll go far, and have
strength. You're a step above the rest, because
you can face your feelings.

What kind of person are you?
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Dec. 5th, 2004 @ 05:02 pm (no subject)
What Would You Do If.....
I cried:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
What Do You Think About My.....
Choice of music:

Would You....
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
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Dec. 2nd, 2004 @ 09:57 pm (no subject)
Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
1. biting my nails
2. not cleaning my room until it is a total disaster.
3. drinking
4. smoking

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
2. beer
3. slippers
4. nailpolish

Name Four Scents You Love:
1. coffee
2. car gas
3. vinella
4. ax

Name Four People That Know You the Best:
1. lillie
2. melissa
3. dont know
4. dont know

Name Four Things You'd Never Wear:
1. a tie
2. baby blue
3. one of those blues clues shirts
4. sparkly nailpolish

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. i want a cigarett
2. my life sucks ass
3. i want out of jackson
4. who are my real friends??

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
1. went to walfle house
2. went to walmart
3. talked to david
4. tell my dad i smoked

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
1. food from elcharro
2. air for tammys tires
3. cigaretts
4. my sister bought me a hatebreed jacket

Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like:
1. the dixie chicks
2. pink
3. dunna
4. dunna

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. pepsi
2. coke / vanilla coke
3. diet pepsi
4. coffee

First Grade Teacher's Name?
Mrs. kelly

Last Words You Said:
ill take a shower later

Last Song You Sang?
angel by walls of jericho

Last Person You Hugged?

Last Thing You Laughed At?
the lady on "dead end" who when she jumped out of the car half her skull was missing and she touched her brain and it was the orgasm part and gave herself an orgasm by rubbing her brain.

Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?

What's In Your CD Player?
mixed hardcore cd

What Color Socks Are You Wearing?

What's Under Your Bed?
hhhmm, god only knows

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
uh... 12
Current Taste?
cigaretts and coke

Current Hair?
shart and messy as fuck
Current Clothes?
striped black and white pants and a bleeding through shirt

Current Annoyance?

Current Longing?
a taco from taco bell

Current Desktop Picture?
some ugly color

Current Worry?
not having any friends at jhs

Current Hate?
everyone at jhs, wonder why i have no friends....

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
eyes, lips

Last CD You Bought?
um......bleeding through

Favorite Place To Be?
in my bed

Least Favorite Place?

Time You Wake Up In The Morning?

If You Could Play An Instrument?

Favorite Color?
Do You Believe In An Afterlife?

How Tall Are You?

Favorite word?

Favorite Season?

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
um.....my real dad.
Favorite Day?

Where Would You Like To Go?
to spaling high, and india, england, italy

What Is Your Career Going To Be Like?
oh yea im suposed to start thinking about that now arnt i?
How Many Kids Do You Want?
2 boys

Favorite Car?
what ever will work

A Random Lyric:
"i kill the only thing that exceeds my existance" walls of jericho
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